As I wake up today, it’s cloudy outside and I remember how far I’ve come. So many of you follow me on Instagram and this blog because of my career in fashion. Thank you for that. I’m hopeful you even appreciate my sense of humor or maybe we are friends from college. But what many of you don’t know is that I have always struggled with anxiety and depression. Over the past few years it got worse. My anxiety was exasperated by chronic migraines and neck pain. I was finally grieving the death of my brother. In the past waking up on a day like today would be “a reason” to have an off day or an off week or an off month. This cold front coming through would trigger a migraine. Add the chronic pain to anxiety and everything would snow ball. I would be angry at myself for feeling awful…and that just made it worse. I have always been so hard on myself. My worst critic.
Guess what? Mental health is not something you decide to struggle with. It is not a choice and I will argue that forever, with anyone. And if you are struggling emotionally you know what I’m talking about, but it’s the people who don’t understand how you’re feeling…who come from a very naïve, negative place. They think that you can just go to the gym, take an antidepressant, pray, think positive and you’ll be just fine. (Cue eye roll.)
Your brain is not wired like somebody’s who does not suffer from anxiety and depression, but you want to feel better. So you try everything in this world. I did. I tried EVERYTHING. But I still didn’t feel better. I felt defeated. Lost. Confused. The opposite of happy. I was miserable. KEY part is that all of these struggles are now in the past.
I promise to share specifics about my journey in future posts. What I can tell you now is that I am free of extreme anxiety, depression, I barely get any headaches, my chronic pain is a non issue, and I’m happy! Regular medicine does not work for me. I tried SO many different ones, all the way back to when I was a 12 years old. BUT, what did work for me was this cutting-edge infusion treatment. Ketamine infusions gave me my life back. I have never been this happy before, this productive, this grounded, this at peace. My brain is completely healed. 100%.
No one and I repeat no one on this earth should have to suffer from anxiety, chronic pain, depression, bi-polar depression or PTSD. I never had true PTSD nor did I have bi-polar depression, but this treatment is having great success for those people as well. Also, I was never suicidal. When given to someone who is suicidal, ketamine infusions have a significant, ground-breaking effect; the depression and suicidal thoughts fade away. Thank God. Together, we can finally stop the negative stigma around mental health.
This is my experience. Yours may be different. But what if it’s not? I would like to defer to the health experts (like Dr. Andrea Kim at Texas Ketamine Specialists) on exactly how it works, but I can tell you this. Ketamine heals you brain. When you are anxious or depressed, parts of your brain are over active and other parts are not functioning. These infusions re-wire you brain, create new neuron receptors. Ketamine heals your brain. And it happens in real time. Life changing now has a new meaning.